and yet, someone i dont even know, i cry about. (http://staroftheseabreezes.blogspot.com/)
its not fair to be a widow at 28. ever. but im so sad. this guy, is so positive, so "ok" it seems. even though his wife just went to spend eternity with the Lord. i envy his strength and his outlook. i wish i could be like that.
im not that sad in reality. i truly believe that God called her home. He knew how amazing she was, and she worked her way into the lives of others. He knew she did her work, He called her home. Yet, its sad to think about. Why does He take the good ones? The ones who need to stay on this earth to help more?
I remember coming home to my dorm freshman year, and there was huge yellow squirrel on my door. "love your pledge mom, Alison." she was amazing. and i can only think that i was a pledge mom to two girls, who both ended up leaving AGD. what does that say about me? She was my pledge mom, and i ended up being president.
i remember once i thought i had "wake" duty. i took a bunch of sleeping pills so i would fall asleep early and got a ride to the house. i went there, went up to ali's room, and she was so confused as to why i was there.
i had the wrong night. she laughed at me.
i do remember doing wake with her. it was so pointless at the time, but yet, she was there with me. i do remember that.
she is with the Lord. Im not sad. I cannot be. God had this planned out since before she was in the womb. Maybe i dont understand it. i dont get it. but what i do know is that she did her job here on this earth. she spread His word. she made others believe.
She is with Him, and we are not. Yet. We can only be somewhat jealous, right? jealousy is a sin. but how can we NOT envy her place?
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